I know this sounds like an exaggerated title, but I can assure you this is very literal. In this series, I am not only going to explain how I did this but some of the fascinating discoveries I made through the process. I will also tell you how I have been able to reverse the disaster I caused for myself and start to heal. Buckle yourself in it is going to be a ride!
First Some Backstory:
As a teenager, I had issues. More so than most. I was constantly in trouble and fighting with everyone at home, at school, at work, and even with my closest friends. I had temperament issues, authority issues, sleep issues, focus issues, health issues, chronic depression and just a general inability to deal with life in any sort of “normal” manner. I was forced to see therapists as well as psychiatrists who would put me on a lot of different medications. I would try these medications for a few days or a few weeks end up deciding they made me feel worse and go back off of them. I was diagnosed with a learning disability due to my inability to focus and put in special classes well below my grade level.
Also, I would get sick all the time. I had a face full of acne that formed a lot sooner than any of my peers which I was prescribed a lot of different medications to treat. Life wasn’t just miserable for me; I made sure it was also miserable for everyone around me.
I am telling you these things only because they have relevance to my discovery. Another thing that has relevance to my discovery has to do with genetics. My dad’s side of the family has unfortunately suffered from a variety of different mental health conditions, including bipolar disorder. alcoholism, depression, and dementia. My dad, however, has taken really good care of himself throughout his life and appears to of escaped those genetic predispositions. Another thing I want to mention about my Dad’s side of the family is that there are also a lot of trailblazers and high IQ’s on his side as well.
After high school as a young adult, I very slowly started becoming a more functional human being. I noticed things like eating better, and some of the supplements I did take had a positive impact on my mental health as well as my health in general. My skin started to clear up, and my temperament started to calm down. I even started my own business (something no one ever thought I would be capable of). As the years went by, both my health and mental health continued to improve. As I continued to improve my diet, worked on my mindset, explored alternative therapies, removed toxins, and added quality supplements. A few years ago, I would have considered myself to be in the best health and best mental health of my life.
Then out of nowhere, I fell apart!
My ADHD, which had always made it more difficult for me to regulate my focus went into hyper-drive. I could no longer perform the simplest tasks like getting a glass of water without standing in the middle of my kitchen for 20 minutes, confused with a racing mind, just trying to gain enough focus on the task at hand to complete it. I started averaging 3-4 hours of sleep a night having a hard time falling asleep and waking constantly. I had very low energy levels, and the energy I did have was manic and exhausting. My hair was falling out at a rapid pace. I hadn’t been sick in 3 years but somehow managed to get sick three times within three months.
I became a recluse who didn’t want to leave my house and the social anxiety I always had intensified dramatically. I couldn’t seem to pull myself together enough to do much of anything that wasn’t forced upon me. My house became a disaster for months; I could only manage to do the bare minimum of a few loads of laundry and dishes. I also noticed other strange symptoms. I could no longer remember my dreams and my sense of smell had dramatically diminished. It is hard to describe my state of mind when all this was happening; it was not typical depression. It was more like a state of listlessness, where I almost felt disconnected from myself. I felt like I was living in my body but had no control over it.
I racked my brain, trying to figure out what could have possibly happened to me. The year prior, I had decided to shut down my successful business to pursue another passion project that had not yet become successful. Although that could explain a normal case of depression, it could not explain the dramatic brain and body shift I was experiencing. I was still living a similar healthy lifestyle no big changes in that regard.
Desperate for answers, I decided to seek out testing to get a better idea of what was going on with me.